The art of getting lost

(Read: losing stuff, a poem, or really a list)

Days of the week, namely. Four wisdom teeth. All the makeup:

MAC lip primer, lip liner, lipsticks.

Generally red. 

Too faced lucky lipstick, made with champagne essence.

Brow pencils.

Eye liner: liquid, pencil, pens.

The naked palette, to be found later, surprisingly sitting in my makeup case.

Stockings: seamed, thigh high, black, ripped, fishnet.

That orange nail polish, glow in the dark.

One of the cat's green eyes, along with our friendship.

Love, simple and sweet.

Love, tumultuous deceit.

Blue hair dye. 

Fifteen other socks.

One pair of too big fake pants.

Assorted parts of my self confidence.

Countless poems written on the back of napkins.

Sketches of clothing.

Doodles of your eyes.

Sight of the future. 

The cap to almost every hair product,

The cap to the glue I use.

Any cap, really.

Glitter nail polish.

Glitter necklace.

Friendship rings.

Virginities, no such thing.

My mind?

Inglot's Gel Liner

Definitely a fan!

inglot's gel liner

Peach Hair!

Most recent color!!

Created with the following:

Slut-Shaming, brought to you by Miley Cyrus

Slut-Shaming, brought to you by Miley Cyrus

If you have any form of social media you have seen everyone's opinion on Miley Cyrus's performance at the MTV Video Music Awards. Before I had even so much as heard of it, a women I follow on instagram had already reposted every possible image she could, and every single “fitspo” (short for fitness inspiration) I follow had her captioned with “WHY I SQUAT.” And I found myself disgusted, but not for the reasons you may think. 

Now. Let's examine the facts... Yes, her costume choice wasn’t all that flattering. True, her performance could have been different. But guess what? It wasn’t. 

To be completely honest, the most I know about Miss Cyrus is the brief mention she gets in the movie Zombieland, when Woody Harrelson and Abigail Breslin’s (whose breakout role was in the blockbuster Little Miss Sunshine) character are arguing about  Hannah Montana, Miley's breakout role. I wouldn’t call myself a fan, but right now I would like to say that I am definitely in her corner.  A very fine line is to be walked when we approach how we judge a young woman’s behavior, and that’s what Miley is, a woman. And I firmly believe that nobody—aside from maybe her doctor—has the right to tell a woman how she should behave.

Women, who are more often referred to as “girls,” are interesting. By the constant praise of the type of girl we should all be trying  to emulate and the continuous belittling of anything that strays from this invented “norm,” society has turned us into something soft and manageable. Just the term “girl” turns us into children, and simply by definition removes both our maturity and power. Stereotypes are hard to break out of, especially when they are blatantly rooted in our basic use of the English language. Miley Cyrus is not acting like the little Hannah Montana “girl" we once knew and that terrifies America. Gosh golly gee, she was imitating sexual acts with a grown man while they were singing.  What's next? A woman chooses to have sex before marriage?? 

Without even trying Cyrus filled America’s hate quota for the month. There is a deep rooted American need right now to focus on why her performance was important. If society doesn’t allow Miley the right to be a woman, this creates a restriction for every female. The reason her performance was allegedly judged so harshly was because it was overly sexualized. Let’s talk about that for a minute. A slut is defined as a person who has casual sex with multiple partners. Generally we are a society that dates multiple people before (or even if) we are married. And when you date, chances are you are going to have sex and if you aren’t, that is entirely your choice, exactly the way having sex is. When you remove all the hate around the word “slut,” the definition is merely a person. A human. A woman or a man.

New lip obsession: Revlon "just bitten kissable balm-stain"

It is no secret that I have more lipsticks than any one person should own for the entirety of his or her life.

I like to say this is because, well, I'm a makeup artist, and a makeup experimentalist, and a beauty blogger. But truthfully, lipsticks just do it for me. 

And currently I feel like I have discovered the perfect summer lipsticks. Well I suppose they are actually "balm stains" but, I digress.

And what makes them even more special? They are drugstore brand! Revlon you lovable brand, you've done it again! So, the Revlon "just bitten kissable balm-stain" you are (currently) the lip love of my life.

They were buy one get one free for a hot second so naturally I already have many. And I would love to acquire more. ALLLL THE BALM-STAINS MWAHAHAHA !!

They also taste minty fresh. And I feel like they are perfect for a casual make out sesh. (Yes, a "make out sesh")

They retail around nine dollars, too, so not too shabby !

brows, coral, and Dita Von Teese, oh my !

A post about a few of my favorite things...

So many people may know of my wild obsession with eye brows. How I use both a pencil and a wax and powder to create them. I recently tried an Anastastia brow pencil, the perfect brows one, and it is quite special. My favorite brow thing is always going to be Benefit Cosmetics "browzings."

Well! Benefit is coming out with a tinted brow gel with fibers. Soooooooo! You are welcome for the heads up for possibly my new favorite brow thing ever. Yeee!

On another note, a fancy clothing note, I managed to talk myself into getting a couple pieces from Wheels and Dollbaby, most notably their Dita cardigan. (Cue the  shock and awe music) 

And in coral. Might I add I REALLY love coral right now. I may even add it to my classic and forever favorites of ballerina pink and black. 

So maybe that sweater was a million dollars, but I adore it to death and you can truly feel the quality. Oh and it was designed by Dita Von Teese. No big deal. 

I also decided to invest in the "le fox" angora sweater which I would swim and sleep and just live in if I could. Unfortunately it really isn't possible to wear both the dita cardi and the "le fox" at the same time, but ya never know.....      

Can I also zero in on how awesome this model's hair is. And I would like to just put it out there that I am REALLY going to TRY to grow out my hair this time.

GROWWWWW!!

Oh, also I love Pacey Witter!

TEAM PACEY!!!

(I love television)

A little serious post

Sometimes I need someone to remind me of my worth.

Most of the time I am able to detect what is really about them rather than me, but sometimes I need a little reminder of this.

It is hard to be a girl. One of the bloggers I look up to is thugxwife from her tumblr of that name (http://thugxwife.tumblr.com/) she is a wolf-goddess-mermaid who speaks honestly and eloquently. She stands by her opinions and isn't afraid to prove ignorant people wrong (and they so very often are.) I've taken a lot from her posts, mode recently her opinions on the term "girl crush" and how homophobic it really is.

Anyway, I hope to one day have the confidence that she does. And I hope to one day feel as comfortable in my body as she does. She is gorgeous and intelligent as just so very admirable.

All that aside, recently I have made a lot more jewelry (goldenhair madness designs) and people truly love it. It is hard for me to take compliments, and then post them, but they really have. 

I got more moths added to my old one, and that makes me feel more powerful.

I feel like I am more than competent in my knowledge of vintage, as I worked with it for years, as well as with my makeup skills. The latter I know I can always improve on and the former I would always love to receive formal training on. 

It is hard when someone doesn't understand what you do, and due to their misconceptions they belittle you. 

I need to work up my nerve a little more and not allow others to determine for me how much I matter. 

Your job as a surgeon does not make you any more of a human than me. My job doesn't save lives, but it allows me to embrace and even make a living off of art. Along with that, is the gratification of making another person feel more confident in themselves; more comfortable in her (and sometimes his) body. 

So yes, this is my full time job. 

And to balance things out, I'm going to post a few photos of my jewelZz. I use antique pocket watches and in the bodies I put crystals, dried flowers, occasionally feathers, and something special and/or spooky (Knuckle bones of wolves, shark teeth, assorted animal claws...)

And here are the moths